Manic Monday: Will

This Manic Monday post is taking a tremendous amount of willpower to generate. I don't know why. In fact, it seems that everything in my life right now is sucking my willpower. It feels hard for me to do anything and everything right now. Clean my house, take a shower, play with my kids, make dinner, pay the bills, call my stupid tenant that won't pay me, do family home evening, read scriptures, read anything that isn't an escape-fiction kind of book for that matter... everything feels like I am only doing it by sheer force of will. I wonder why that is? Things aren't always like this. Sometimes life just flows and I do everything with joy and ease, or so it seems in my memory of it. Now is not one of those times. Even blogging is hard. I feel uncreative, unspecific, and out of ideas. Sorry that this is a downer kind of post, but I'm being raw here. Dustin just came down and asked me to give him a haircut. UGH! Bust out the willpower again, baby.