A picture of me last year and now and how I have changed since then…
Pictures… my favorite! I’m just so good at uploading them!
Here’s me last year… right about this same time. A year ago today I was two days from my due date with Brynja.
As you might have guessed, I’ve changed a little bit since then, physically speaking.
Here’s me recently… this was at a Valentine’s Day Dinner/Fundraiser/Dance thing. It was SUCH a fun night… D and I learning the Cha-Cha and then Jessica (on the left), Rebby and I (and our hubbies too, now and then) dancing til they closed down the house… that was a great night.
So my coat hides my tummy a little bit, but you can see that I’m definitely shaped different now than I was a year ago. Thank goodness. Pregnancy is great in many ways, but I was so very uncomfortable this last time. I’m so glad that’s done.
How else have I changed, besides the very obvious? Last year my life was about growing a baby and preparing my mental faculties for the life-altering event that having a baby is. I was not feeling introspective or even very self-aware, with the exception of my physical self. Now I feel like I’ve cycled back into the digging/introspective/processing/moving-forward Clancy. I felt very stagnant for a long time… a year and a half or two. I am now digging around in my heart and looking for the areas that are ready for growth. I’m finding them. Maybe that’s why I want to blog. Why I’m actually writing blog posts in my head while I’m in the shower.
It’s interesting as I think on where I’m at now, I notice that I am much kinder to myself . I feel like more of an observer this time around than I did in my last cycle of growth. I look at the things that need work with more love and more acceptance. That feels good to notice. I am ok with where I’m at, even though I’m not where I want to be. I feel like an observer of my life in many ways. Like I am watching something unfold.
And I like that.