Yesterday I was talking with a friend of mine, Beckie, who is one of the most ambitious and creative people I've ever had the pleasure to know. I would tell you to go look at her blog and see all the projects she is ALWAYS doing, but she's a private blogger, so you'll just have to take my word for it. She's amazing.
Beckie was telling me yesterday how she's redecorating her boys' bedroom. Stars Wars themed. Too cool! She proceeded to list all the things she was doing to redecorate and telling me about the amazing deals she found on fabric, bedspreads, pillows (which she's having someone embroider "A long time ago, in a galaxy far, far away..." on them!), and telling me about the paint and color schemes she's laid out. As she spoke (on the phone) I had a vision of Beckie on one of those redesign-your-space-on-a-budget type of shows. Trading Spaces is coming to mind, but maybe that show isn't even on anymore? I don't know as I don't have TV. Anyway, I said as much to her that she should have her own show. She might have thought I was joking, but I was deadly serious. I wonder if I could be her first "victim"? My house needs some serious love in the decorating department.
Anyway, the point to all this is that when I told her this, she told me it's just her hobby. Her house is a canvas and she is the artist. It's always beautiful and it's always morphing into the next awesome project. If I'm being honest with myself, I feel twinges of jealousy and that self-deprecating voice in my head starts yapping when I talk to Beckie about (or see) her latest project. I wish I had some of her creativity! And her motivation. I don't do the decorating thing very well. Maybe I would if I ever gave myself the chance, but it just never seems to be a priority as there's always something else pulling at my time and my finances. And, as long as I'm being honest, I will say that I don't do motivation well either, which is a requirement for projects like Beckie does. I'm a procrastinator through and through and I seem to function best and get the most done with a looming deadline to spur me along.
Ok, I'm getting off track again. Have I ever mentioned I'm a sucker for tangents too? My husband (among others) gets very frustrated when I'm telling a story because I start telling five other stories amid the first story I started. Kinda like right now, how I'm telling you about tangents. It doesn't take much. Anything shiny and I'm distracted! (At least that's what Dustin says, in jests of love.)
So, the real point is that, in talking to Beckie, I started to wonder what I have been doing lately? I voiced that thought aloud and started to say how I blog a lot, but then I stopped myself mid-sentence, because, no, I don't really do much of that lately, do I? I haven't seen my friends much. I haven't been cleaning much. I haven't been doing anything much and I'm really not sure what it is that I do all the time! Beckie pointed out that I do homeschool my son, and there's truth in her words. That does take up a large chunk of my time, energy and focus, but I feel like there should be more. I should have something to show for the end of the day, right? Something for me?
So, that's been on my mind. I've been trying to figure out what it is I do all the time. I've decided, since it's a new year and all that...(I'm not much of a goal setter, if you haven't guessed)... I'll try blogging again! I might never be the blogger I once was. I might never have that daily muse come and write essays across the parchment of my mind, but I can try, darn it!
So, I think I'll try to blog a little more. Blog about what's been happening around my house, in my life and in my brain for the last few weeks (months... whatever...)
What I'm trying to say is stick around a while! Be on the lookout for more postings on this, here, blog.